When I was younger, I was always curious about the concept of a
person going through a 'mid-life crisis'. Many times, I would watch a
television show where a married man would cheat on his wife and he would give
the excuse that he had sex with another woman because he was going through a
mid-life crisis. I was actually a little scared and unnerved about the idea
that I might go through one myself when I got older. (Remember folks, I do have
Asperger's.) I've actually seen other things adults would do during their
'crisis' like hanging out with much younger adults, doing crazy stunts, or just
trying to tap into anything that might make them feel younger like when I see actors who divorce their spouses for a much younger person. I feel like I've
hit that point, but not in any of the examples I mentioned.
As I write this, I'm currently 45 years
old and I've come to the plateau in my career to which some critical decisions need
to be made. A real mid-life crisis isn't about sex or finding your youth again,
it's really about a reinvention or as I've titled this piece...a metamorphosis.
After World War II, most men and women were able to obtain that 'real' American
dream of having a home, a nuclear family (meaning only the biological mother
and father), vacations and a job that would last them all the way to
retirement. Of course, that idea of the way America is…is over; and the
reason for the change is the way businesses have now operated plus the cost of
living. These elements of business and living costs have all but, squeezed
people out of what they saw from their parents and grandparents. The middle
class in general is dying, it was born after WWII, but now those families are
finding it harder to stay within that life style today. To me, if you don't
improve yourself and your situation then some exterior force will come in and
make that decision for you...whether to Meta morph yourself or slide down into
oblivion will be your fate.
What this change would mean is if you
worked for a company like insurance and you've been doing it for a very long
time, there is a point where you will hit a ceiling. Once you've reached that
point, you will have to decide whether to stay at that level until you either
retire or get fired because you will be more expensive to be kept on the
payroll so they'll let you go. The sports world is a great place to look because
if an athlete is too expensive or too old then the team will generally cut the
player. If you don't want that to happen then you will have to look at other
alternatives to stay with the company like becoming a trainer or be a manager.
If you don't look a little outside the box then will not move and that's where
the company might make the decision for you.
I've come to the fork in the road and I
realize I have to change and I have every intention of doing so...soon. I've
been a teacher for 19 years and I know I need to elevate myself or disappear
into obscurity. Resent events in my life have really motivated me to lift
myself up much higher, partially because I'm mad. I feel cheated and wrongly
used so I've decided I'm going to do something about it. I'm doing to reinvent
myself. This does not mean I'm going to sleep with younger women or do crazy
stupid stunts...NO; I'm going to show those people who thought they could bring
me down a whole new side of my potential. I have Asperger's Syndrome, but that
doesn't mean I'm an idiot or a weirdo; I'm much more, much greater than that.
I know the Lord has a plan for me, and
maybe this was His way of kicking me in the butt to make this change...all I
can say is that, IT'S WORKING!!! I have to be honest and tell you that this
bugs the heck out of me, but I can see why this had to be done. Most of us with
Asperger's hate change, but I knew I couldn't get around this event. I have to
face it straight on and with determination. A metamorphosis will happen in me,
even if I'm not really sure I'm ready for it...I will not give up.
Song of Inspiration [Check it out on
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Song: "We Won't Give Up"
Artist: The Afters
Album: Light Up The Sky
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