Piece #82 - A deep Depression

I realize Christmas is coming and coming soon. I've always heard that Christmas time is one the most depressing times in the whole year! I have no numbers or articles to back this statement, but I think we can agree that depression can run really high during this time of the year. As everyone else, I've always heard about it and I thought I understood it, but I think in some way I really didn't. I could recall on several occasions as a teacher when I felt 'down' and disheartened, but I wouldn't call being it being depressed. Before I even knew that I had Asperger's, I probably assumed I was in a chronic state of being depressed, but I can honestly say that was never the case. There were many times when I was highly stressed, but not depressed. At this point it would be a good idea to see how the Webster Dictionary defines ‘depression’: a serious medical condition in which a person feels very sad, hopeless, and unimportant and often is unable to live in a normal way. I really believe the key words in the definition are "live in a normal way". In my small thinking with a person with Asperger's, I really didn't understand what a normal way was.

Since I have been diagnosed and have a much more self-awareness of everything around me, which established normal way has been much more defined for me personally. One of the newest phases that I have been doing through lately is depression. For a while, I wasn't willing to admit it and I know that my wife has been fighting it for quite a while because hers is a very severe case right now, but I know she'll get through it. The only reason why I came to the same conclusion about myself is because things that I had no problem doing before, I can't seem to do them now.

I realize not doing work sounds like a pitiful excuse for just not doing it, but it goes much further than that. The best as way I can describe it was when Douglas MacArthur had addressed Congress about the Korean War and basically going over President Truman's head; he said in his speech "that old soldiers never die, they just fade away". The idea being that whatever we are talented in life, like for me writing, depression is like we want to do what we love, but undertaking it becomes a struggle. Right now, I'm having a hard time really writing anything. It's been a tussle just to write this blog. This lack of motivation really befuddles me because I generally love to write, yet I can't.

I really think I'm going to be the fight of my life. I've always had to deal with difficulties of all kinds but, I never would have thought I would have to face off against mediocrity. As a Christian, it's one of the devil's favorite things because if I don't make an effort to go out and spread the good news then I've lost that moment Satan has won another day. Satan never wants anyone to know the truth and especially during the Christmas year. I know I can get past this, but I really believe I'll need the Lord's help. If you are in the same boat as I am, please just remember that it's not the end of the world and you can get better, but it has to start with the first step...changing your outlook. I realize that is an easier said than done, but the depressive outlook had to start somewhere, now we just need to readjust that perspective to one of promise and a better way of life. I've said this lots of times but, you still only have one life and that's it. Would you like to think that you can make the most of it? You're just going to have to do the hardest thing of all...try.

Song of Inspiration [Check it out on iTunes or Android!]:

Song: "Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas"

Artist: Jaci Velasquez

Album: {Christ}mas

Here's the music to the selected song...sorry, there wasn't a true video.

Don't let depression kill your Christmas.

Piece #75 - My Directing Method

Being a director like I have for several years, there are things that I've had to deal with in this business. This isn't the professional method of directing, but this is my perspective on how to be a director in any medium. I will probably address the proper method of how to treat actors, but that is not the sole focus on what I'm going to share. As a director you will have to deal with people who think they know it all and you can't say anything that will benefit me. The problem that most amateur actors forget is that acting is an art form, but it's also an occupation. I think people tend to forget that acting is work...hard work. One of the things that I try to let the kids know is that it's a very difficult business to get into. I feel like they need to hear the truth about the world of entertainment. I tell them that they have to 'want' it very badly and do almost anything to get in. An internship is a great way to get your foot in the door, bu

Piece #103 - I.Q.

I have, in some form or fashion, addressed this topic on intelligence, but I thought I'd hit this head on. One of the big things that people with Asperger's gets tied with is having a high intelligence. I have to admit that I've had a hard time finding solid evidence on all people with Asperger's having a high intelligence. I guess this a bit of a piggy back to my earlier posting #78 No Talent Required. The difference between these two is I'm going to address the intelligence in general versus the talents from Asperger's (or Savants). When it comes to the topic of intelligence, I get a similar feeling like in high school when the class decides on 'the most successful' label. I say this because I've always questioned what is successful? In turn I would also ask in the same breath what is intelligent? Testing the intelligence of someone used to seem like either a brainiac, just an average person or an idiot...depending on the score which is reall

Piece #72 - Brant Hansen, the radio voice for Asperger's

This might seem a little unusual for my blog to be talking about a certain person, especially one that I've never met in person, but he still has a special place for me because of how much we have in common...mostly because we both have Asperger's. Brant Hansen is or as of Monday July 7 th , 2014 was a DJ for a national syndicated Christian radio station called Air 1. He and I have exchanged messages through Facebook from time to time in pleasant conversations, but we have come to a point that is a little more serious. Brant has never shied away from his disability and if anything he has been a positive voice to anyone who would listen about his Asperger's. As I mentioned though, Air 1 is ready to shut him down. Here is what Brant had to say about his departure from the radio station: "If you've been a listener to our radio show, please know this: I’m heartbroken over the end of the show. I've counted every day as an honor to be able to have a platfo

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